I like to get up before the sun rises, put the coffee on, feed the cats, and then have that moment to myself. It's my time before coffee, before the demands of the day start pinging on my consciousness, before the the deadlines and due dates start hammering at me. It's only a moment or two...I found that taking that time for myself first thing in the morning makes what ever happens later easier to deal with, to cope with--if I have that little piece of time for me.
Then there are the mornings like today. I taught last night and that usually gets me revved up--high, if you will. Then I can't come down from that in order to get to bed at a decent hour, despite the fact I was exhausted. So it was nearly midnight when I finally got to a point where sleep meant sleep and not tossing and turning. That means I didn't get up until after the sun rose in the east. I had eleven hungry cats demanding food before I set the coffee up. I heard the honking of a car and immediately today's demands crowded into my head. I found myself rushing about like there was a fire I was missing.
I flipped on my computer; reassured Arby that I wasn't dispensing tummy meds yet; fed Buddy who's taking up temporary residence in our bathroom (until we can find a home for him); stopped to pet Gabby while reminding Harley to watch his water intake; informed Topaz she can go back into the bedroom with D in a minute, and realized that I was already full-bore into the day without my special time.
And I realized that without my special time, my few minutes to breathe in the day and the joy of living another new day, I was beginning a bad habit of self-destruction. I need that special time. It's the only time that I'm not giving or doing for someone or something else. It was time to reverse myself and take a few minutes out. Sure I missed the sunrise, but I had pictures of other sunrises. I turned off my computer, moved away from the desk, and took a few minutes.
I needed my time.
Do you take a special moment or two for yourself? When do you do it? Are you a morning person or do you function better in the afternoon or evening?