I don't know if I've shared this bit about myself with you or not...but here it goes. I'm not a patient person. Patience and I have had this running battle for many years--all my life, in fact. I believe we were forced to live together as an evil experiment that is still being run. We don't get along very well at all. Sometimes I'll win a skirmish but mostly Patience wins. Think about it--how can constantly beat Patience at the patient game?!?!?! Every time I try to push forward or for progress or for anything--here comes Patience telling me "Just wait..."
Here's an example of our dialogs:
Me: I need to go back to school. Now that I've made that decision, decided on my major course of study, I've decided I want to go for the Master's degree. In fact...let's skip all the crap courses and just head straight into the Master's program.
Patience: Be patient. You have to take those crap courses first...your Master's degree will come in time.
Me: I don't wanna wait! I'm 38 years old--I'll be--gee--I'll be like 40-something by that time...
Patience: That's why you need those crap courses--your inability to do some simple arithmetic proves you need the basic foundations first.
Me: I don't wanna wait--I'm a good student and I don't wanna be 45 years old before I get my Master's degree. So see? I can too do simple math if I have to!
Patience: Have patience. Start from the beginning and build your skills. Something tells me if you're really determined, you will get your Master's in record time...Have patience.
See what I mean? Ok--Patience was right--I was 43 when I graduated with my Master's degree. And Patience was right that I needed those crap courses to build the foundation of skills I needed. But still...
Anyway--now you know. I'm not a patient person. Remember the garden I wanted? Dreamed about? Dreamed BIG about? I've been learning patience the hard way. I planted the seeds and waited. The first signs of green were mostly weeds. I planted even more seeds, watered, weeded, and dangedit--WAITED. Impatience set in and I grabbed plants at the local box stores and planted them. And watched them get eaten by bugs and burned by the drought because watering was restricted to once a week.
I've been finally rewarded.
Zucchini plants mostly from seed. Yes--those are weeds I've got to pull. Again.
Look what I spotted...a flowering zucchini. Woooooooooohoooooooo! There's still hope that these plants will produce actual fruits. Ok--vegetables. whatever...
The pepper plants have buds on them! I'm so excited since they've been so difficult to keep alive. Yes--these are from plants I bought since the seeds never came up. I'm doing it differently next year. But still this is sooooooooooo exciting! I've visions of roasting peppers dancing in my head!
My wax beans and my green beans are growing. I'm still waiting for the tomato plants to do something--anything! The basils may have to be transplanted in the front yard where they have some shade. But I think I'm going to plant some pumpkin seeds and see how they do. Especially now that we've had lots of rain!
Patience: I told you to just wait...Patience is rewarding! All you have to do is....
Me: Yeah, yeah, yeah--we've been through this already! And please don't say it!
Patience: ...have Patience.